The hunger builds...

I'm beginning to feel the hunger build deep inside of me.  As we begin sharing ideas and views of submission it's beginning to build a fire deep inside of me.  I find my mind filled with thoughts and visions of my body being taken and pushed to the highest levels of sexual desires.  Feeling his power over me as my body begins to submit to his touch.  The desire and hunger grows to the point where I beg to be taken.

The thoughts and curiousity of the firsts....The first time I am taken and submit to his control..the first time I get punished.  Wondering how my mind and body will react and more importantly how I will react to him...Will it be as natural as things have progressed so far or will I try to remain strong and prolong the transfer of control......only time will be able to answer these questions.

I would love to hear feedback on this for anyone interested in responding. 

My thoughts

Yesterday I went to a tailgating party for the Sunday football game.  I went alone but my mind was racing of thoughts about Him.  My thoughts were so focused on the lifestyle as my mind and body raced with anticipation to feel alive again..the beginning stages of discovery and learning each other can be very exciting as well as intense.  Using the game as a tool to offer my submission.  Each loss of downs giving myself to Him in a sexual way.  With each taking feeling my submission grow stronger and a bond slowly begin to develop.

I see visions constantly on a daily basis and I'm learning that He does as well.  I guess time will tell how perceptive he is about my mannerisms and behavior.  I have learned some of his dislikes already and I wonder what to expect the first time he gets upset with me?  Thoughts of curiousity race in my mind on how he would deal with me in a public setting when it occurs as well as in private. 

I'm going to do my best to be well behaved and show him how good I plan to be.

It's been a long time...

I took a break from here and hope to hear from all of you again.  I needed to walk away for a little bit to regroup and try this once again to find my true happiness and contentment.  I have met someone and feel that there is some true potential for making it happen this time.  In suttle ways, I'm learning simple things from him. 

I shared with him tonight about my blog and hope that he will visit sometime and post once in awhile as well.  I think a blog can be really interesting if both parties post to it.  I'm not sure he will want to, but hoping he will conisder it. 

One of the things I like about him is he takes his time and once to go slow and get to know me first.  I find this very refreshing and appealing. 

I will start again posting on here my thoughts and feelings on a more regular basis.  I hope everyone has a Merry Christmas and all their spanking dreams come true...