Thursday, August 11, 2011

Reflecting on my Punishment to come

My Dom is coming home from Afghanistan this weekend and hopefully we will connect by the end of next week.  His words of confirming that my punishment is coming for my wrong doings for my tickets sits very strong in my heart and soul.  I've had to endure a long two months of waiting.  I am so connected to him and bond so strongly but at the same time, I struggle with the exchange of power.  My life will never be the same again.  I know his strong hand will wear my bottom out.  I've accepted that.  So why all the butterflies that sit so strongly in my gut?  Is it that I know he will take control of me how I need to find that balance in my life, or the fear of the punishment?  All I know is that I need him and will submit to him fully.  The pain I know is going to be hard to deal with, but when it's over I will feel so much better and feel that we've connected on another level and hope it's for good.

1 comment:

  1. So your punishment is finally coming. Glad to hear that he's going to follow through on this. You definitely need to be punished for acting so carelessly behind the wheel of a car. I hope he disciplines you soundly and good. I'm happy to hear that he's coming home and that you will be dealt with. I wish you the best and will keep an eye out for your posting on when it happens. Good Luck I think you're going to need it and probably won't be sitting to comfortably for awhile...Dom from Texas

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